hey Acorn.. know that your dad ,mom you & all the family are in our prayers........
Even one of the apostles ,Thomas, had doubts.. our Lord did not cast him out & shun him for these doubts, our Lord took the time to show him... and to help restore his faith... So you are not alone... Our faith is for sinners & doubters... those who need His help the most... & every person alive has failings.. some we know about, some we don't... but know that our Lord earned for all of us our salvation & forgiveness......He just asks us to try & do better every day.. and if we would be forgiven... to forgive others in turn...