Lost it yesterday

[Thuer]

The strangest thing happend to me yesterday evening.
I am a trainconductor as you probebly know. It happend at the end of my shift.
I was driving towards home with the train and at the last station I closed all the train doors and the train started to drive.

That is the last thing I can remember. I wake up on a bridge over the tracks at my main station Rotterdam with two ambulancebrothers above me and a fat needle in my hand and a lot of conserned co workers around me.

I was blacked out for about 20 minutes. I can't recall anything.

I am a diabetic for about 14 years now and this is the first time I lost it completly.

It makes me very affraid and unsecure becous I lost control over my mind and body.
Ofcource it has to do with a low bloodsugar. But normaly I do notice that and can take some suger to recover.

But this time my lightball gets out completly. This is scary very very scary.

My boss phoned my this morning and says that she do not want to see me on the train becouse I am not safe to work now.

I do accept that. Becouse I am not safe to work now. This freeks me out.

I do know I can't help it. It is the hellpless what bothers me to.

So at the moment I lost it.
Ofcource I have made contact with my diabeticmedic. I have to wait now for what they have in mind for me.

But at the moment I am deffinatly not Happy.

Sorry to bother you with this story. But I have to write this of my mind.

 

[Raider]

I hope that everything works and your diabetic medic can certify that you are safe to be on your train again. In the meantime, hope your company provides work to keep you busy and well paid. On the bright side, neither you nor anyone on the train were harmed during your blackout.

Best

Charlie

 

[Onomea]

Thuer, it must be very difficult for you.

God be with you, my friend. Surely your doctors will be able to help.

Best wishes.

 

[locolobo]

Sorry man, I hate it for you. I hope things work out for you.

 

[pawncop]

A prayer from Texas for your healing. Having just gone through a bout of pneumonia, I can relate to not being in control.

I am having to make some major changes in my life to stay better.

Hope all goes well and you return to work quickly and well.

 

[Cobroller]

Stay safe. Your priorities will be changed now, but think of it as opportunity.

 

[StatesRightist]

Prayers sent, God Bless.

 

[Thuer]

I have had a serious phonecall with my diabeticmedic.
I have had a bad shift yesterday started at 11.45 hour till 20.15 hour in the evening.
I have had a bad meal in the cantine and a few hours later a breadmeal.
I do work on a train without a proper toilet. So I have to use a bit more insuline that my sugerlevel is a bit low so I don't have to go to the toilet.
(if your sugerlevel is to high you have to go in need to the toilet)

There it was going wrong. I have used to much insuline. The result is the total blackout.
I have to be more carefull with that stuff. The bad meal in the cantine wasn't give enough power to compensate the insuline.

Comming friday I am back on the train again. My boss has this aproved.

Pffffffff. I am happy now but I still has to be very very carefull.

Diabetic is an underestimate sickness even by the diabetic himself.

Thanks for your support.

 

[YogiBear]

Aloha,

I know the feeling.

I have caught myself going there and have been able to catch it.

Your body just gave you a Warning.

Maybe you didn't drink enough water/fluids.

When I go out of the house for any reason, I always take a small cooler

with cold water and powdered Gatorade or similar just in case.

I always make it a point to drink water even tho I don't "feel" I need to.

A lot of times I feel better after just drinking water.

Best wishes on your recovery.

 

[Cooter Brown]

Thuer, first of all take care of yourself!

Secondly, I'm glad you're back working--you seem to like your job.

Third, be careful in the future.

It seems like you could find a way to relieve yourself (go potty) on the train? Something portable? Or is your driver area not private enough?

Overall, I wish you the best of luck in the future.

 

[Arik]

Sorry to hear about your situation. Glad nothing happened! You cant change what happened so just take it easy, relax, and get checked out. No sense in adding extra stress!

Maybe have a few of those "Dutch cigarettes"

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[Thuer]

Thanks. But I serious dislike those Dutch sigarettes.

Fryday I am back on the train. As I said. But under extra support. A co-worker goes with me on my shift and looks after me.

I am very greatfull that nothing serious has happend with the passengers.
But I am not an engeneer or traindriver. Just a trainconductor who really loves his job.
That was my biggest fear. To loose my job. But that is no question anymore.

Again thank you all for you kind support. It gives me a good feeling. Thanks.

 

[DeathGrip]

Take care of yourself.

I'm happy this didn't cost you your job. My friend is a conductor in Germany. It's his dream job.

Now about those dutch Cigs. Do they test you for your job? My guess is they do. I wouldn't want someone stoned operating a train.

 

[fat tom]

I'm also a diabetic Thuer,but have not experienced a total blackout. I've come close a couple of times but was at home and close to available sugar sources. Like you said,I can feel it coming and usually I'm awake and can ward it off. Twice,I've awakened at night in a cold sweat with chills and light-headedness. My sugar level was in the 40's both times. I'm just glad I woke up! You're right,it's very,very scary. No matter how careful you are,there are going to be times when you mis-calculate your insulin dosage. Are you on the pump,or do self-injections?
Anyhow,glad it worked out for you this time!
f.t.

 

[Old TexMex]

Good news! I like good news.

 

[Thuer]

I do selfinjections. I can tell you. It is the most scary event in my life
(accept my wedding) till today. It looks like there is a second you.
My co workers told me that I was telling them that everything was alright.

Even they see it wasn't. The medic tryed to place a needle in my arm and before he can stick it in a yelled auw auw. I am totaly not afraid of needles of any kind. So when you are out. You do not act like your self and cant recall anything.

I lost 20 minutes or more. I do not like that. I do like to have control anytime and everytime. Therefore I shall never let myself under hypnose or so. I like to have the control myself.
I learned yesterday on a hard way that isn't alway's possible.

I am very glad that my boss is trusting my and let me do my job again.
I am a trainconductor for 31 years now. I can teach and sell guns. But Trainconductor I love the most.

 

[pawncop]

I am so very glad you are able to go back to work and that you are the path to recovery. Stay safe and take care.

 

[Texas Star]

Theur-

I'll continue to pray for you. My father has diabetes, and a friend does. I know it can be very serious.

You are one of my favorite members of this board, and I'd hate to lose you.

I hope I never develop this ailment. I don't know if I'd have the fortitude to keep sticking needles in myself.

 

[Thuer]

Hi Texas Star,
Before diabetic was diagnosed by me I had have a co worker at the gunstore where I did work in my freetime.

He was a diabetic. At that time I wasn't. I watched his always when he sticks a needle in himself.
My tought where the same as you then. I did hope that that never happens to me.

13 years later. I have stoken a couple of thousands of needles in myself and do not even raise an eyebrow.
It is a part of my life and quit common to me.

But to black out that is new.

I hope that I wont have that exeprience again.

Thank you for your kind words. And again thanks to all the fine people who respond on my post. I love to be here.