Shall Not Be Infringed
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So, my wife and I have gone through our CC courses and we are officially applying for our permits to carry. I Have always had firearms since I was a kid, I always have one close to me at home, and I would even open carry a 1911 in thigh holster in Arizona when I was headed out to hike, because you just never knew when you'd come across javelina, coyote, feral hog, or one of the many sizable critters running around that state.
Anyways... We picked up a couple of 9mm M&P Shields, and I've gone through them and performed some trigger mods, night sights and other little odds and ends...and we have fired about 500 rounds through each without even a slight snag.
With all of that said... I must admit that there has been some strange feeling in the back of my mind as I have been preparing to legally conceal carry. I never experienced this with open carry, because I wasn't really in the presence of the general public when I was doing it. The strange feeling I guess is all the "what ifs", the consequences of actions, and knowing that I have to change my mindset in many ways to avoid them all together. The biggest one being conscious to avoid confrontational situations that can and do occasionally spring up along the way in life. I can not either pin myself or be pinned into a situation to where I have to pull my weapon to defend mine or my family's lives, or even a situation of where the cops end up involved and I look like the bad guy for engaging in such an event while having a firearm in my possession. I'm not a real confrontational guy, but you know...s*** happens sometimes.
I guess another big part of the weird feeling is finally admitting to myself that I live in a society in which I feel like I need to carry a firearm on me at all times. I just hope I never ever have to use it for anything else other than shooting at paper targets. But, make no mistake... If it comes down to my life or theirs, I will make sure I'm the one that gets to see another day. Same goes for my wife.
I must say though... While in the process of completing my CC course and submitting the applications/fees, I have been carrying mine around the house in an IWB holster (as has my wife). And, as I've become more comfortable wearing it, those feelings I have had have subsided a bit. Hopefully, I'll get used to carrying my CCW just like I do my boot knife or any other article...and I'll forget all about it unless the need arises.
So, after all of that rambling... The feeling of heightened responsibility and awareness of yourself, other, your surroundings, situations, and legal consequences? Knowing that if I ever have to pull that trigger, I will have to answer for it. The feeling that this thing could either save my life or get me into a legal bind? Is it just me over thinking it? Or did anyone else go through this when they were starting to conceal carry?
Anyways... We picked up a couple of 9mm M&P Shields, and I've gone through them and performed some trigger mods, night sights and other little odds and ends...and we have fired about 500 rounds through each without even a slight snag.
With all of that said... I must admit that there has been some strange feeling in the back of my mind as I have been preparing to legally conceal carry. I never experienced this with open carry, because I wasn't really in the presence of the general public when I was doing it. The strange feeling I guess is all the "what ifs", the consequences of actions, and knowing that I have to change my mindset in many ways to avoid them all together. The biggest one being conscious to avoid confrontational situations that can and do occasionally spring up along the way in life. I can not either pin myself or be pinned into a situation to where I have to pull my weapon to defend mine or my family's lives, or even a situation of where the cops end up involved and I look like the bad guy for engaging in such an event while having a firearm in my possession. I'm not a real confrontational guy, but you know...s*** happens sometimes.
I guess another big part of the weird feeling is finally admitting to myself that I live in a society in which I feel like I need to carry a firearm on me at all times. I just hope I never ever have to use it for anything else other than shooting at paper targets. But, make no mistake... If it comes down to my life or theirs, I will make sure I'm the one that gets to see another day. Same goes for my wife.
I must say though... While in the process of completing my CC course and submitting the applications/fees, I have been carrying mine around the house in an IWB holster (as has my wife). And, as I've become more comfortable wearing it, those feelings I have had have subsided a bit. Hopefully, I'll get used to carrying my CCW just like I do my boot knife or any other article...and I'll forget all about it unless the need arises.
So, after all of that rambling... The feeling of heightened responsibility and awareness of yourself, other, your surroundings, situations, and legal consequences? Knowing that if I ever have to pull that trigger, I will have to answer for it. The feeling that this thing could either save my life or get me into a legal bind? Is it just me over thinking it? Or did anyone else go through this when they were starting to conceal carry?
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