Chubbo, I always enjoyed the stories of your life experiences and your accumulated wisdom. Don't give up the ship. You may find that you have some good days as you go along and I hope you can use the days you feel better to join us here.
Draw what you can from my experience. About a year ago I had a hemorrhage in my right eye that affected my vision so badly that I thought initially my shooting career was over. But I taught myself to shoot handguns by shooting righthanded but sighting with my left eye. When the club .22 league started last May, I was on the firing line with everybody else. So write out a prospective post with the old fashioned instruments, a pencil and paper, so that you will have all of your thoughts put together and can copy them with the keyboard and check them with the Preview Post button and make any corrections. Never give up,