My heart felt condolences to you and the family. I've lived in my mind the day I may have to do likewise to my boy and I don't think I'll do well at all. I remember 12 years ago when I sat at the hospital bed with my mom watching the life slowly ebb from her and was holding her hand when she died. Just as she saw the breath of life enter me so I watched it leave from her Nov 19th 2002.
In all probability, I won't have an easier time when my boy's time is done. I hope time will heal your wounds and broken heart. There's little anyone can say to sooth those deep wounds, it's something only time can heal. The scars will remain but they won't look and feel so ragged as they do now...may she rest peacefully over on the other side of the Bridge.