Echo40
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I know that 2020 isn't over just yet, but it really doesn't matter because there's no time left for it to turn itself around, and it has already been the worst year of my life regardless. That's saying something too, as I have by no means lived a privileged or even a particularly pleasant life.
2020 has just been life-changingly awful for me, with the only positive influence being that it has pushed me to try harder, appreciate things more, find comfort in the little things, and ultimately try to be a better person because it has just been so utterly miserable that I don't want to be any part of the reason why the year was so terrible for anyone.
Sincerely, if at any point I ever made anyone unhappy on this forum by the things that I've said this year, then I'm very sorry. 2020 is horrible enough without me being a short-tempered fool who runs his mouth everytime somebody says something I disagreed with, and I'll tell you right now that my New Years Resolution is to be a more patient, kindly, and pleasant person.
In this year, I've been horribly distressed by so many things... I was sick with COVID-19 early this year which was needless to say awful and nearly died, only to experience so much terrible sadness since then that at times I had wished that I hadn't survived. More than anything else, it was the way that other people behaved that really broke me, seeing or otherwise hearing about people turning against one another in a time when folks really ought to have come together, being selfish when they ought to have been looking out for their fellow people, being downright villains at a time when the world desperately needed heroes.
However, all of the misery, all of the sickness, all of the evil, and the sheer amount of isolation ultimately lead me do a lot of soul-searching... I used to think that I was a wise man, a good-natured man, a patient man, but in hindsight I have been a foolish, arrogant, self-righteous, hateful and short-tempered man.
Over all, this year really humbled me, revealed to me many things about myself, my life, and the world around me that I really didn't like, things that I have to accept. I cannot change all of the things that I don't like about my life, much less can I change the world. As much as I wish it weren't so, I am a mere shadow of a man, capable of perceiving the world, but incapable of changing it. I can, however, at least change myself for the better, so that's what I'm going to do.
I hope that in spite of everything, in spite of myself, in spite of my numerous failures, in spite of the fact that I am an accursed fool, that my words might move people, even if they are forgotten along with my name.
2021 will not be a good year on its own. Even if the pandemic is successfully dealt with through vaccination, it wasn't what made 2020 a catastrophe, it was merely the the fuse that lit the match. Truthfully, it was the way that people reacted to the pandemic that made the year awful, and if people don't stop to consider what they're doing, then I have no doubt that 2021 could be even worse. So please, no matter what the future may bring, don't make the same mistakes I have by being foolish and compulsive, but be wise and be patient, consider your actions. We've already witnessed a small example of what happens when people react without thinking, fueled by emotion and selfishness. Yes, many of those people may have been bad to begin with, merely using a variety of environmental factors as an excuse to do whatever they wanted, but I've seen it happen to otherwise good people as well, so even people with good intentions can get caught up in a whirlwind of emotions which in turn drives them to make harmful decisions.
Anyway, thanks to anyone who bothered to read this. I wish you all a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year. Rejoice in the things that bring joy to your life, reflect upon the year 2020, consider how you might make 2021 a better year, and let's all work together to make it happen.
2020 has just been life-changingly awful for me, with the only positive influence being that it has pushed me to try harder, appreciate things more, find comfort in the little things, and ultimately try to be a better person because it has just been so utterly miserable that I don't want to be any part of the reason why the year was so terrible for anyone.
Sincerely, if at any point I ever made anyone unhappy on this forum by the things that I've said this year, then I'm very sorry. 2020 is horrible enough without me being a short-tempered fool who runs his mouth everytime somebody says something I disagreed with, and I'll tell you right now that my New Years Resolution is to be a more patient, kindly, and pleasant person.
In this year, I've been horribly distressed by so many things... I was sick with COVID-19 early this year which was needless to say awful and nearly died, only to experience so much terrible sadness since then that at times I had wished that I hadn't survived. More than anything else, it was the way that other people behaved that really broke me, seeing or otherwise hearing about people turning against one another in a time when folks really ought to have come together, being selfish when they ought to have been looking out for their fellow people, being downright villains at a time when the world desperately needed heroes.
However, all of the misery, all of the sickness, all of the evil, and the sheer amount of isolation ultimately lead me do a lot of soul-searching... I used to think that I was a wise man, a good-natured man, a patient man, but in hindsight I have been a foolish, arrogant, self-righteous, hateful and short-tempered man.
Over all, this year really humbled me, revealed to me many things about myself, my life, and the world around me that I really didn't like, things that I have to accept. I cannot change all of the things that I don't like about my life, much less can I change the world. As much as I wish it weren't so, I am a mere shadow of a man, capable of perceiving the world, but incapable of changing it. I can, however, at least change myself for the better, so that's what I'm going to do.
I hope that in spite of everything, in spite of myself, in spite of my numerous failures, in spite of the fact that I am an accursed fool, that my words might move people, even if they are forgotten along with my name.
2021 will not be a good year on its own. Even if the pandemic is successfully dealt with through vaccination, it wasn't what made 2020 a catastrophe, it was merely the the fuse that lit the match. Truthfully, it was the way that people reacted to the pandemic that made the year awful, and if people don't stop to consider what they're doing, then I have no doubt that 2021 could be even worse. So please, no matter what the future may bring, don't make the same mistakes I have by being foolish and compulsive, but be wise and be patient, consider your actions. We've already witnessed a small example of what happens when people react without thinking, fueled by emotion and selfishness. Yes, many of those people may have been bad to begin with, merely using a variety of environmental factors as an excuse to do whatever they wanted, but I've seen it happen to otherwise good people as well, so even people with good intentions can get caught up in a whirlwind of emotions which in turn drives them to make harmful decisions.
Anyway, thanks to anyone who bothered to read this. I wish you all a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year. Rejoice in the things that bring joy to your life, reflect upon the year 2020, consider how you might make 2021 a better year, and let's all work together to make it happen.
