How to Find Help
Bonzo,
My sincerest condolences to you over the loss of your mother. It is never easy to lose a parent. The grief you feel may seem overwhelming, but it is normal.
The drinking will not help. It will provide a little short term relief maybe, but the alcohol is a depressant, and will make you feel worse. The folks at AAA can seem hard-nosed. What they want you to do is to come to a meeting.
You can do that, and ask for a sponsor, someone to talk with, if you feel you have a problem with alcohol.
You could also talk to a doctor or a social worker (every county health department will have one or be able to refer you to one) who can help you work through your understandable feelings of grief and loss, feelings that any of us would have.
Another option is a minister or priest or rabbi.
I know it may seem that no one cares or understands, but there are people who do. Even though it is painful, please take the small steps needed by making some more phone calls until you find the right person to help.
One more choice: you can go to the emergency room of any hospital and tell the nurse who first sees you (the triage nurse) that you have just lost your mother, that you are drinking very heavily, and that you are feeling very depressed. The emergency room doctors are very capable and will usually make a referral for you to see someone who specializes in helping people who have experienced the death of a close relative.
So, you have several choices -- county health department, a minister or priest, your doctor, or, if you do not have your own doctor, the emergency room at a local hospital. I am sure that one of these sources will be able to help you.
Good luck and PM me if you need any further assistance finding the help you need right now.
Bullseye
