On April 21st Lisa and I said, Happy Anniversary," to each other for the last time. On April 23rd, she took her last breath.
It really hits me hard once a month for 'bout 4 days or so.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-9yYJ6ZAYns
Snubby, I often think of you and Lisa. Your marriage, your relationship, reminds me of our own. I think of myself as a strong person, but ... the loss of my wife would be so impossibly difficult.
But, I also think, I also believe, that to precede my wife in death, to leave her alone, would be irresponsible. When, in 2017, I believed I was dying of cancer, that was my greatest concern. Leaving my wife alone. It troubled me greatly. I really thought I was gonna die, and it felt like I was betraying a comrade on the battlefield, like I was leaving her alone to face all the difficulties that life brings
My wife is younger than I am, and is statistically likely to live longer than me, but I feel an obligation, a duty, to survive longer, to care for her, always and forever. And, if I can do this, if I can survive my dear wife, I will feel I have done my duty.
So, Snubby, you have survived the love of your life. Lisa. Surely, it is so painful.
But Lisa, she never had a moment alone. She never had a moment without knowing that you were at her side. You took care of her, fulfilled your obligation to her.
Well done.
