Same here. The thought is sorta like running your fingernails down a chalkboard, but amplified a million times. And why in the heck anybody would even think of doing that, and to what end, is beyond me. Yet these news stories, "Would I do this if it were loaded?," crop up in the news with regularity over the years.I wouldn't be able to do that even if I examined it for 15 minutes and it was obviously unloaded.. the thought makes me sick to my stomach.
but police do not believe alcohol or drugs were involved